Things I miss....

1. His boots on my floor...




2. Him walking up behind me just to hold me, kiss me, whisper I love you...




4. This is a funny one I know but I miss seeing him in Full battle rattle...It may be heavy for him, it may be a little uncomfortable, but the sight of Jeremy in his full battle rattle.......love it!





5. Him playing his xbox games and ignoring every word I say, talking over me while I am talking to him because he is yelling at someone on the game.


6. Laying in bed and talking till 3am about nothing, until one of us passes out.


7. Arguing about stupid stuff that really don't even matter just because we can.


8. Having a 2nd opinion about anything, down to what color of towel should I buy.


9. Him coming home after PT and at Lunch.


10. Random text messages because he is bored.



The thing I miss the most well I won't say because he would be embarrassed... I will just say "TAGS" he will know what I am talking about....


Bookmarked 1 month 13 days <3

Silver lining

Lately it seems Ive been making a lot of the proverbial "lemonade". We've had a rough year, no doubt about it, but there's something about our army life that always brings the important things right back into view. Deployment, army life, army wife......Only an army wife can find the silver lining, and then weave into a beautiful work of art. Deployment when you talk to civilians, if that's family, friends, or just random people they all wince at the mere mention of a deployment, and begin dreading it for me months in advance. But another army wife, she knows exactly how to put into perspective. There were no questions about how long he'll be there, if I will get to talk to him, will he have to go again, or are you scared. Just a nod and a smile, because she knows, she's been there, or she is there right now. In an instant army girlfriends share a bond, a sisterhood bound by trials and separation. If I say something one of them has an answer to my question or a simple I know how to find out. I have done a lot on my own lately that I would have never dreamed I would do. I have saved a lot, cut a lot of corners, and put myself in places I never thought I would go or be. So for that I just want to thank my army girls, I want to thank my husband for showing me "WE CAN MAKE IT THROUGH ANYTHING" and everyone out there that has made this last month and 11 days easier on my kids and I. Bookmarked <3

I hate this van!

I think we officially got screwed when we bought our van 1 1/2 years ago... It is now in the shop again and I have put more money into it then it is worth. I am waiting to hear back from the mechanic tomorrow to see what the deal is and then go from there, but I honestly think it is the end of the road for me and this car. I have gave it more attention then I have myself in the last month and all it wants to do is give me crap. Not to mention during this deployment, I just feel like I am really living alone and no matter how hard I try I just keep getting screwed. I have been saving money for Jeremy this summer when he comes home so he could have a good time. Honestly every penny I can without making it rough on me and the kids. I do things ever now and again because I too still have to live, but I wanted it to be a good time this summer when he came home. Now this stupid van is ruining everything and if I could find a trash can big enough that is where it would go. I just want a good car, and a safe car for me and my kids and every time I think we have found one someone screws us over. Buying new is about my only option because I am so scared of used cars now that I want to kick something, but then I would hurt myself. Also it never fails the time I need Jeremy to call home he don't. It's really one of the most frustrating things I have to deal with, that is not being able to just call and ask him what he thinks. I just have to make the choice myself and pray to God I made the right one. Tonight I just feel like I am treading water... and I am honestly scared of what they are going to say tomorrow when they call me about the "LEMON"... but for now I think I need sleep. 1 month 11 days.... bookmarked <3

Wearing your husbands rank? WHAT?

Something that always gets me is when I see a wife that thinks she knows everything because her husband is an E-7,or E-8... really My E-5 has been in as long as yours and done 3-4 different MOSs... I never claim to know a lot but it really ticks me off when I see "OLD" wives giving wrong info, this is NOT 1905 anymore, and another is when a wife wears her husbands E-7 E-8 ranks... are you kidding me? You are NOT him, you didn't earn that rank, so step off your high horse and look in the mirror because guess what your civilian married to a soldier! Your a spouse just like us all and you live the same life we all do. I could careless what your husband has on his chest, you put your pants on just like I do. I am NOT being disrespectful, I am simply being honest. People are really weird these days... Now on with my day... it was warm and sunny today! We played outside all day and the kids were out at 7pm. I talked to Jeremy online today I got to see and hear him... I miss him so much and I can't wait until he is here with us. Goodnight <3 Bookmarked 1 month 10 days

Feathers anyone?

So because we had the robbing issues yesterday, I left my dogs out when I left today in the house not kenneled... They were fine from 11-5pm. I came home let them out and fed them and then left again to go to my friends house. I was gone for awhile and when I came home Toby had tore a whole in my down feather comforter... when I opened the door it scared the crap out of me... I was wondering what the heck happened. Then I saw the blanket in the floor... hahaha it looked like someone killed a chicken in my living room. I had an ok day today... I got my hair done, and the kids were at Day Care playing all day so they had fun and I just got some me time which was nice. I love my family and my friends... I don't know what I would do without you guys! I am headed to bed... Bookmarked <3 1 month 9 days

My husband is fighting a war and I am scared to be in my own house...

Today the people across the street house got broken into in the middle of the day. I never saw a thing, or heard anything for that matter. They kicked in the back door, kicking right on the deadbolt. They stole all their electronics, money, jewelry, video games and systems...bank information, file cabinet and anything the couldn't really pawn they left. I was honestly fine in my house alone until now. Tonight is rough. I was blow drying my hair and the dog walked up behind me and I thought I had a heart attack. Jeremy told me I should have bought a gun before he left and I kept telling him I would be fine not to worry and now I am scared out of my mind. I think I want that gun now. I just don't get peoples way of thinking sometimes at all. My husband is fighting a war and I am scared to sleep in my own house tonight. NOT they way I wanted to start off this deployment at all... So because of this I have put almost every piece of furniture in front of my back door and front door and my dog is sleeping in my bedroom. Thank you stupid people for ruining about the only thing I felt safe with right now. Bookmarked <3 1 month 8 days