Life is truly one big dance...

Today I watched my youngest as she stepped into the world of ballet. She is terrified to learn something new. She was scared to let go of my leg for 1 minute just to point her toe with the other kids and follow her teachers foot steps. She stood with her finger in her mouth for over 15 mins just staring as her teacher and I loved her legs and arms for her. Then I saw she was starting to pay more attention to the teacher and I slowly moved towards the door. I was out and she was inside finally without me. She looked around and couldn't see me anywhere but I could see her. Then the tears started to flow but she kept moving her feet and was just pointing for me to come back inside with her. As I watched this all happening I thought of myself and my heart broke for her. She was me in this whole deployment thing. Jeremy has always been there, he has showed me the ins and outs of the military. He has told me everything good and bad from the very start. Sometimes this was good and other times it was just things I didn't need to know until now. I am actually very glad he tells me every thing, because I know his side and I know how he feels. Back to the point of this blog now that I have wondered away from my story. Masa was me today I have followed Jeremy for so long that when he "left the room" I was terrified, scared I couldn't do it alone, scared he wouldn't be there to move my feet so to speak. And now I am looking at him behind a glass, the tears still pouring down my face, but my feet are still moving. Then today when I opened the door and went back in the room where she was doing ballet (the class was now over) She ran up to me so happy that she had completed the class and said mommy I am a big girl now. I just hope by the end of this deployment I feel just like she did today. Life truly is one big dance and you honestly learn as you go... Bookmarked <3