Think before you speak... I mean hit enter

I will be honest here this has been a hard thing for me. The whole think before you hit enter thing that is. I am sure if people thought about it the way I am now I think you would all agree you wouldn't say half of what you would normally say if you honestly believed you might never see that person again, or not be given the chance to fix whatever went wrong. Jeremy and I have been through a lot... a relationship that totally looks like one heck of a roller coaster ride, probably too scary for the normal person to get on. I have said my fair share of things that I would take back 20 mins-1 hour later, but when your typing and something goes wrong they log out you can't type to them and that is that... Your left sitting waiting until that next phone call, the next time they log in, hoping praying that they get to call you again, or log in again. It just kills you on the inside... He is stressed, I am stressed and when one goes to vent and the other tries venting at the same time, well it blows up. There is no way to control it, and in a matter of moments there is no way to fix it either. Yes this has happened... But what I have learned from the mistake is honestly think before you speak... think before you type and hit enter because that maybe your last breath, that might be your last sentence on the computer screen and would you want it to be your last? Jeremy and I had a thing (which I honestly miss) that is when we were mad at each other he would say he was sleeping on the couch, about an hour into the night (that is about how long I would wait) I would send him a text message and say I don't care if your mad I can't sleep come to bed. (ok now you can laugh) hahahaha now that we have that out in the open, one night I was really mad and to see how long it would take I chose not to text message him. I finally fell asleep and I woke up the next morning to find I had slept alone, funny someone else was still up, I asked what his problem was he said "I sat here all night waiting for a text message and I couldn't sleep" (ok now you can really laugh because I did) I took those times and they are now memories, good times I had with my husband that I would give anything to get back. Please just next time you go to say something to someone you love... THINK... I try to make myself everyday... <3 Bookmarked